From 2014…. I know someone can relate to these two posts I shared after my son went to bootcamp…
Write Your Mother!
Sometimes you just start writing a post with no direction. You have a bazillion things running around in your head and you cannot focus it anywhere.
Your mind is on your recruit 750 miles away and on your high schoolers and husband just 2 to 5 miles away. It is fixed on what needs to be done around the house and still wandering off to what is for dinner tonight.
You do dishes and laundry and home school the youngest while you hope there is mail from your recruit. You check the calendar and realize it has been two weeks since he has written you last. The focus is gone… the thoughts just wander too much to really accomplish anything of substance.
Then you go online… which is the WORST thing you could do when your brain is so unhinged. You close Facebook and try to move on to other things that need to be done.
Today…
I will make yogurt
I will make laundry detergent
I will start a batch of Kombucha
I will make a list in hopes of giving some other direction.
The weather is beautiful, overcast and cooler.
The kind of weather that makes one reflective and thoughtful.
I walked… I read my Bible… I worked in the garden a bit…
tomatillos, tomatoes, jalapenos and serano chilis…
Puttering… seems to be my agenda lately.
To all the mamas who have sent a child off into the world… please tell me the focus returns.
Please tell me it won’t feel like limbo forever.
Filling my days seems to help some… with cooking and baking for others.
otherwise I am sitting and waiting for mail that does not come.
No news is good news… at least that is what everyone tells me. The Marine Corps says, “Semper Fidelis”(always faithful)… I say, “Semper Gumby” (always flexible).
And there you have it… what I really think and feel today. A post… of no earth shattering importance other than to say… I miss my boy… and yet, I am so very proud of who he is becoming. Now, if he would just write me a letter…
One Minute and Thirty One Seconds…
Just long enough to hear a voice say “Hi Mom…”
A voice calling for the first time since August 26th.
Just long enough to know he is focused
A young man who is all business and on a mission.
Just long enough to hear the longing
An extrovert who has not had a moment of alone time in almost three months.
Just long enough to ask for comforts from home
Hearing a son missing home and family.
Just long enough to be reassured
To know his family will be there when he is at his most proud moment.
Just long enough to say…
Happy birthday, Son!
Just long enough to hear…
I love you!
Just long enough to make a mother strong for 20 more days.
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